I made it back to the mansion. It's late at night, though. Jean lets me in and tells me Chuck's out on some conference in Rochester with Scott doin' duty as chauffeur. She takes me down the hall to the room I had before, rambling on about how she's glad to see me. She gives me a big hug, unexpected but ok. I pat her on the back. I'm really tired but I should be nice. I ask about Marie and she goes a little distant on me. Says she's fine. Jean leaves and I hit the hay.
This afternoon, I get to see Marie. Jean had me holed up in the lab running some kind of tests all morning. I teased her about how she wanted my shirt off again and she blushed. I'm not here to see Jean, though. I've been thinking about nothing but Marie since I left. Wow does she look good when I finally catch site of her. Nice and sweet, she takes my breath away. Jean calls me to the phone. Chuck says hi and asks how Alkali Lake went. I tell him nothing's there.
Next day I spend a lot of time just talking with Marie. She sure is smart. Funny as hell, too. The day went too fast for me. I can't get enough of her.
Tonight I kept hearing a little whisper in my head. Can't make it out but it sure is irritating the crap out of me. Went to Jean to see if she could figure it out. She doesn't know either. Offered to sit up and have a beer with me. Nice thought, but I gotta go to bed so Marie and I can get that early morning run in. She's a pleasure to start the day with, ya know?
I noticed two of the boys hanging around Marie today. That little voice in my head is making me irritable. Either I'm jealous of those little shits or I'm hungover and I don't get hungover. I warn them off and they look at me like I'm some sort of pervert. Marie's not smiling either. I don't get that. I thought we had something going. I manage to beg my way back into her favor and get her to smile at me again. Damn, there isn't anything I wouldn't do for her.
I can't sleep. My head aches. I keep hearing things. Finally I doze off. I wake up in Marie's room. Shit! My claws are out! What the fuck am I doing? I run back to my room. No one saw me. Am I going nuts?
My head is pounding so bad I can't see straight. I know I shouldn't have yelled at Marie like that. I love her. I didn't mean what I said. I told her so. She just gave me a funny look, like she was scared of me or something. Damn it, I'm hers, forever, doesn't she know that?
I can't even lie down tonight. I can't even think. My head hurts so bad I can't stand it. I never thought I would act this way. I struck Marie. I can't believe it. I actually pushed her into that wall. She was saying something about how those boys didn't mean anything and I lost it. I've gotta do something. I can't hurt her again. I just can't! I would do anything for her. Doesn't she know that? I go to the lab and slice the lock. Nice of Jean to keep stuff on hand. Quickly I find what I need. I did finally manage to figure one thing out. I go to the pool in the gym. I did figure out what I was going to do if I ever lost it. I swallow all the pills in both bottles. That should keep me out long enough. I'll never hurt her now. I jump in the deep end.
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Jean looked down at the lifeless body held prisoner on the bottom of the pool by the weight of its own bones. Ignore her, will he? That'll teach him. She decides to call Scott and see when he and the Professor plan to come back as she turns and walks away.
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End
Back to the library.